ICannotForget

Section I : A warm welcome

Hello, hi, I'm Esia !
Welcome to me !
Dear, or I daresay, dearest traveler of the world wide world, I herein claim this part of the volubile digital landscape as the latest expansion of my heart ! (locus amoenus amirite guyss)

I intend for this barely functional abode of mine to be the one-stop place for all your Esia-related needs ! And on this tangent, no, I will not stop acting as if I qualify as an antonomasia, sorry.

In here you'll be able to find (hopefully) a poorly curated assortment of my writings and thoughts !

So yeah, a blog.

I do plan on integrating actual writing mumbo-jumbo in here, although my boorish, desperately buoyant vocabulary undoubtedly suffers from english being my second language. Thus, be warned, you might get jumpscared by fleeting glimpses of alien phonemes.

Please be aware that yours truly is learning html and css from scratch, as such this website is not suited yet to mobile users, and works best at a screen size of 1600x1900.

So, if this brutally dissonant ambitus of mine hasn't scared you off yet, I will admit that, beyond all my paths, oblique and sinous, I just wanted to say :

I want you to look at me.

Section II: (yay) Interests (yay)

Philosophy

Favorites!

Kant
Leibniz
Wittgenstein
Fichte
Aristotle

Also knowledgeable about:

Pascal
Rousseau
Nietzsche (reluctantly)
Plato
Socrates
Pre-socratics (they're like a billion, not mentionning them all, sry Anaximander)
Bergson
Husserl
Walter Benjamin
Marx
Hobbes
Ricoeur
Montaigne
Sextus Empiricus
Heidegger
Schopenhaur
Lévi-Strauss
Hegel
Adam Smith (he published philosophy stuff too)

Themes studied

The person
The principle
The force
The world
Social science (in language and society
Art and technè

Currently reading

"Grundlinien der Philosophie des Rechts", Hegel (1821), "PUF" french critical edition by Jean-François Kervégan, in "Quadrige" collection

Esotericism

Systems I'm familiar with:

Qabalah (lurianic and hermetic)
Taoism (alchemical)
Enochian
Solomonic
The Golden Dawn
Thelema
Various medieval currents

Video games

Favorites!

Yume 2kki
Gurumin : A monstruous adventure
FFXIV
osu!mania
SDVX
Touhou Project series (all of the main games, PC-98 and windows era, some of the side-games)
Hellsinker
Deadeye Deepfake Simulacrum
Project Moon games (all 3 of them)
One Shot
Hello Charlotte trilogy (and etherane's other titles, but Hello Charlotte holds a special place)
Pocket Mirror
Rotmg
Akashicverse-Malicious Wake
LSD Dream Emulator
Little Big Planet (1st to 3rd game)
"Okegom" trilogy (Deep-sea prisoner's games)

Literature

Favorites! (novels)

Howard Philips Lovecraft (especially the "dream cycle" part of his works)
"The Master And Margarita", Bulgakov
"À la recherche du temps perdu", Proust
Albert Camus
"Demons", Dostoevsky
The "Fourmis" trilogy, Werber
Goethe's "Faust"
Alexandre Dumas
James Joyce
Umberto Eco
Jules Verne
"Le Testament français", Makine
Dino Buzzati
Jean Giono
Stefan Zweig
Rabelais
"Bel-Ami", Guy de Maupassant
Georges Perec
The "Zaregoto" series, Nisioisin (yes, I know.)

Favorites! (plays)

"Caligula", Camus
Maurice Maeterlinck
Joel Pommerat
Paul Claudel
"Cyrano de Bergerac", Edmond Rostand
Jean Racine
Euripides
"Spring Awakening", Frank Wedekind
William Shakespeare
Sidonie-Gabrielle Colette
Carlo Goldoni
Anton Tchekov
Eugène Ionesco
Corneille
Denis Diderot

Favorites! (poetry)

Aimé Césaire
Arthur Rimbaud
Leconte de Lisle
Stéphane Mallarmé
Charles Baudelaire
Guillaume Apollinaire
Henri Michaux
Francis Ponge
Gérard de Nerval
Emily Dickinson
Yi Sang

Currently reading:

"The Rhymes", Dante Aligheri

Anime/Manga/VNs

Favorites! (anime)

Mawaru Penguindrum
Serial Experiments Lain
Le Portrait de Petite Cosette (sic)
FLCL
Revolutionnary Girl Utena
Puella Magi Madoka Magica
The Soultaker
The Melancholy Of Haruhi Suzumiya
Gankutsuou
Angel Beats
Darker Than Black
Humanity Has Declined
Kyosougiga
Yurikuma Arashi
Revue Starlight
Flip-Flappers
Texhnolyze
Neon Genesis Evangelion
OreGairu
Mekakucity Actors
Pani Poni Dash
The "Monogatari" series
Hellsing (both series)
The Beheading Cycle: The Blue Savant And The Nonsense User
Kaiji
Kino's Journey
Code Geass
Alien 9
Jojo's Bizarre Adventure (watched up to part 5)

Favorites! (manga)

Land Of The Lustruous
Make The Exorcist Fall In Love
I love Amy
Ib: Instant Bullet
Love Agency
Qualia The Purple
Shintarou Kago
Yume Tsukai
BLAME!
Witch's Hat Atelier
Girl's Last Tour
Homunculus
The Essence Of Being A Muse
Shuuzou Oshimi
Goodnight Punpun
Noa Is My Senior, And My Friend
#DRCL Midnight Children
Shimeiji Simulation

Favorites! (visual novels)

Wonderful Everyday: Diskontinuierliches Dasein
Umineko No Naku Koro Ni
Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni
The Song Of Saya
Sayonara O Oshiete ~ Comment te dire adieu
Steins;Gate
You And Me And Her
Jisatsu no Tame no 101 no Houhou
Milk inside a bag of milk inside a bag of milk
Milk outside a bag of milk outside a bag of milk

Section IV: Links

Webring

Credits!

This site was made using a layout from EGGRAMEN!, which I then fiddled with and edited to make this current webpage. Many thanks to them !!

All the shinies from section III link back to their sources, don't hesitate to tell me if you would find some that are incorrectly credited.

Here is the gif used for the circular pic, the two other yume2kki gifs are made by me, using assets from the game, full credits to the yume2kki dev team and authors for these, and for all of the other yume2kki assets used for the site.

Full credits also for all Touhou Project sprites that I used, or made gifs of, to ZUN and Team Shangai Alice.

Contact

If you wish, you can email me at esiacannotforget@proton.me !
I will check this address regularly, but I might be slow to respond.

I currently have no other socials, aside from a discord account, that I prefer to not list here yet.

Though if we are on the same server and you come across me, feel free to say hi ! (Please just don't send a single "hey" or the like, if I don't know why someone's messaging me there's a very high chance I'll ignore them, just me being overly cautious)

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In brief, the world must thereby become quite another. It must so to speak wax or wane as a whole. The world of the happy is quite another than that of the unhappy. 6.4311 Death is not an event of life. Death is not lived through. If by eternity is understood not endless temporal duration but timelessness, then he lives eternally who lives in the present. 108 Our life is endless in the way that our visual field is without limit. 6.4311 Death is not an event of life. Death is not lived through. If by eternity is understood not endless temporal duration but timelessness, then he lives eternally who lives in the present. 108 Our life is endless in the way that our visual field is without limit. 6.45 The contemplation of the world sub specie aeterni is its contemplation as a limited whole. The feeling of the world as a limited whole is the mystical feel ing 6.45 The contemplation of the world sub specie aeterni is its contemplation as a limited whole. 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Whereof one cannot speak, thereof one must be silent. 5.64 Here we see that solipsism strictly carried out coincides with pure realism. The I in solipsism shrinks to an extensionless point and there remains the reality coordinated with it. 5.64 Here we see that solipsism strictly carried out coincides with pure realism. The I in solipsism shrinks to an extensionless point and there remains the reality coordinated with it. 6.41 The sense of the world must lie outside the world. In the world everything is as it is and happens as it does happen. In it there is no value—and if there were, it would be of no value. If there is a value which is of value, it must lie outside all happening and being-so. For all happening and being-so is accident al. What makes it non-accidental cannot lie in the world, for otherwise this would again be accidental. It must lie outside the world. 6.3611 We cannot compare any process with the “passage of time”—there is no such thing—but only with another process (say, with the movement of the chronometer). Hence the description of the temporal sequence of events is only possible if we support ourselves on another process. It is exactly analogous for space. When, for example, we say that neither of two events (which mutually exclude one another) can occur, because there is no cause why the one should occur rather than the other, it is really a matter of our being unable to describe one of the two events unless there is some sort of asymmetry. And if there is such an asymmetry, we can regard this as the cause of the occurrence of the one and of the non-occurrence of the other. 6.53 The right method of philosophy would be this. To say nothing except what can be said, i.e. the propositions of natural science, i.e. something that has nothing to do with philosophy: and then always, when someone else wished to say something metaphysical, to demonstrate to him that he had given no meaning to certain signs in his propositions. 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